Emerging icon

You are re-creating the Mother Wound.

This is not a bad thing. It’s a natural part of your course as an emerging leader in the spiritually conscious & wellness space.

You might have worked through the Mother Wound in a healing-centered capacity already; such as therapy or coaching, embodiment training, yoga classes, meditation courses, or certifications…

….but you’re being called on to work on this in a way you NEVER have before.

That is exactly where I was when I graduated from a feminine embodiment certification training in 2019.

When I was in the program, I felt a heightened sense of self-consciousness as I immediately launched my embodiment coaching program BEFORE I received the certification.

I felt like I had no time to waste – I had just been laid off from my job and believed I needed to make money right away.

As I was a TV/movie background actress when I was a child, showing up on video and posing for photos came easily to me.

I enjoyed finally having the embodied confidence in my healing and sobriety to shine my light as a natural entertainer/performer on social media.

Within a few weeks, I was singled out and criticized – more than once– by my mentor in virtual group sessions for the way I was presenting myself and my offerings. 

At the same time…

My mom was competing for attention from me and cyberstalking my online presence as I was attempting to break away to start my own business.

My new endeavor was, in part, an effort to detach myself from a lifetime of emotional and financial enmeshment with her, for good. 

Although I believed I had been healing the relationship with my mom in my first year of sobriety…

…and that my mentor had my best interest in mind since I had invested around $6k in their program…

I felt like I had her AND my mentors’ eyes on me at all times. 

Up until that point, I believed I had healed from past trauma with sobriety, cognitive behavioral therapy, a 200-hour embodiment yoga teacher training certification, and hiring a TED Talk speaking coach to break out of my shell.

Little did I know, I had A LOT more to heal from behind the scenes.

….and it wasn’t a bad thing, at all, once I slowed down my roll while simultaneously showing up brightly in both online and offline spaces like I never had before.

In my journey to emerging as a leader, I learned how to honor my calling of performing & entertaining as a way to successfully sell coaching while staying true to my natural rhythms & gut intuition.

I accepted I give off “main character” vibes naturally without even trying, and my presentation will displease some and immensely, positively impact many.

As a result, I emerged as a leader in my professional networking groups and the local wellness scene.

Before the pandemic, I taught feminine embodiment classes in my backyard and held leadership workshops for business leaders in Los Angeles; and was asked to speak at a women’s financial empowerment conference where I presented my 10-minute signature talk — Beautiful Thought Leaders— to roaring applause & a standing ovation from the audience.

I had several women coming up to me, tears streaming down their faces, telling me how much my story moved & inspired them.

From then on, I was known as the Queen of Speaking on Live Video in my professional circles during the height of the pandemic, as well as a Dancing Queen twirling like a pop star on my social media during a time of immense uncertainty.

My videos and posts set the tone and narrative for hot-topic conversations about substance abuse recovery, healing from ancestral trauma, breaking away from abusive power dynamics, and of course, dancing my tushie off whenever I had the chance.

I carried this energy into deep grief healing after my mom passed away from pancreatic cancer in June 2021, and as I made a move 300 miles away to San Francisco for a 6 figure job — double the income that I was making before the pandemic — and a different lifestyle.

However…

What happened in the previous embodiment training happened AGAIN with a totally different facilitator, who had said something similar along those lines in a 1:1 session; and a group session where a colleague questioned the way I attract attention to myself to sell coaching.

I felt hurt, betrayed, and BEYOND frustrated about the comments made about my style, look & presentation.

…especially because the investments into my coaching business were adding up to about $20k at this point.

I felt like I was struggling to make rent and bills, and kept going into debt after investing in program after program.

…only to feel humiliated & like I was being singled out for doing EXACTLY what I signed up to do.

While I allowed myself to feel my shame, anger, and frustration; I didn’t wallow in them and sink into a pit of despair.

I turned every drop of haterade into a magically binding potion of spellwork to multiply my manifestations by embodying MORE what I believed I was being accused of presenting myself as: a booty-shaking hussy, a histrionic pop diva, a show-off wannabe Barbie Doll / Kardashian sister.

As a result of owning who I am and what I am truly about, ALL of it, beyond the social media posts…

I made a name for myself VERY quickly as an embodiment coach and leader in the spiritually conscious community of the Bay Area and cultivated an intimately dedicated group of followers who felt motivated, empowered, and inspired by the bold moves I was making; both digitally and in-person.

After dipping my toes into experimenting with my look, style, and different ways of presenting myself…

My true essence of being an iconic, bold force of nature came fully back to life after three decades of pushing it down to avoid bullying & rejection.

It all came from one core practiced belief repeated consistently while finding evidence for it over & over again:

“I am an icon.”

This is the foundational belief birthing the program helping emerging icons, like you, take your rightful place in the spotlight in what is now your baddie icon era.